thesis, weekly review, i need a cool shirt

i lost 0.2 lb this week. i am such a stud! its fine though, i bet i will be down a couple pounds after this upcoming week. overall i thought i did fine this week. i can eat a piece of candy or a snack here and there without going bonkers which is actually great. i don't know if it is a physical thing or a mental thing to be able to eat a piece of candy and not have the urge to go buy a huge bag of it the next day. maybe a little of both? i'm also at the point where i look at the choices in the vending machine at work and a honestly don't want anything in there so i don't get anything.

i'm trying to think back to when i lost a decent amount of weight 10 years ago...the same type of thing happens with not wanting to eat a whole bag of candy at once. some of it seems physical i guess-- your body just doesn't respond to junk food the same way after you've been eating healthier for a longer period of time.

for example i could be the happiest guy in the world, completely in love, have a great week at work-- but if i were eating a lot of junk food all the time, a couple pieces of candy would set me off and i would want to eat a whole bag regardless of how great my social life is going. if you have been there/are there you know what i'm talking about. some people (mostly skinny people) think its totally a mental thing but i do not agree. i'm not saying everyone falls neatly into one category or the other though. lastly, it takes mental strength to drag yourself out of that rut. its a 100% mental battle toward the beginning, to make the right choices and press onward against the prevailing winds of i-want-candy-and-junk-food-because-it-tastes-so-good. its kind of like fighting an addiction! that probably doesn't make sense to anybody. oh well!

i will also say that it is not just candy per se, its all food. i am getting pretty full on smaller amounts of food in general.

ok. today i will be able to get in a decent run (its nice out)...i will report back on that later. also on tap, a chest workout; i think i will do flat bench stuff again. i also have to find a cool shirt to wear for tonight!