i'm going to claim a small victory as it relates to what i ate while traveling. not perfect but not a disaster. yet i've said it before and i'll say it again--i need to be a lot more serious with my diet. a lot more focused. plan the day. i quit the other diet because i got sick of the food but i probably should not have quit. i have been losing ground ever since. actually, gaining ground would be the more appropriate way to think about it. heh. sometimes i simply have no idea what to do. i'm tired of thinking about food and what to eat and what not to eat and how much to eat and planning out the days and throwing out spoiled vegetables. i hate it. all of these things need to be done for me to lose weight but i hate it.
when i travel, i don't think/obsess about food because i'm distracted. and that is a welcomed reprieve.
this hotel was swanky. maybe even a little over the top swanky. i ran on the treadmill very early in the morning (4.30am) on friday for 3 miles before my first meeting. it was a tough 3 miles for some reason. but i pushed through. the worst part of it was the mirror--it was very close to my treadmill so i could see myself running in full view and i was disgusted. many times it is so hard for me not to dwell on past failures. frankly, i think that is one of my biggest faults. dwelling on failures of the past. i can't forgive myself for gaining all this weight back after working so hard to lose it. i can't. i deserve nothing but criticism for letting it happen.
oh, i also lifted weights after my run on friday morning. this is only the 2nd time i've ever worked out while on the road and i've been traveling on and off for 5+ years. a small victory in what is hopefully a precursor to many more breakthrough victories over the coming months.
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i need to buy a book that tells me exactly how to run with proper form. for my last 2 runs i have been working on trying to be a mid-foot striker. it feels to me like it places more stress on my lower legs including the calves, shins, ankles. it seems so much more natural to land on my heel. after all, that is how we walk isn't it? becoming a mid-foot striker, if that is the right thing to do, will be a challenge.
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one thing i want to do more of is visualize my victories before they happen. try to develop a postive mental focus. to that end i will try to fuel my body as though i'm training for a race every week. which is true in many ways.
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this upcoming week i will be traveling every day except monday. i'm gonna pack the workout gear and hope they have a fitness room with very generous hours. that is all for now.
when i travel, i don't think/obsess about food because i'm distracted. and that is a welcomed reprieve.
this hotel was swanky. maybe even a little over the top swanky. i ran on the treadmill very early in the morning (4.30am) on friday for 3 miles before my first meeting. it was a tough 3 miles for some reason. but i pushed through. the worst part of it was the mirror--it was very close to my treadmill so i could see myself running in full view and i was disgusted. many times it is so hard for me not to dwell on past failures. frankly, i think that is one of my biggest faults. dwelling on failures of the past. i can't forgive myself for gaining all this weight back after working so hard to lose it. i can't. i deserve nothing but criticism for letting it happen.
oh, i also lifted weights after my run on friday morning. this is only the 2nd time i've ever worked out while on the road and i've been traveling on and off for 5+ years. a small victory in what is hopefully a precursor to many more breakthrough victories over the coming months.
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i need to buy a book that tells me exactly how to run with proper form. for my last 2 runs i have been working on trying to be a mid-foot striker. it feels to me like it places more stress on my lower legs including the calves, shins, ankles. it seems so much more natural to land on my heel. after all, that is how we walk isn't it? becoming a mid-foot striker, if that is the right thing to do, will be a challenge.
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one thing i want to do more of is visualize my victories before they happen. try to develop a postive mental focus. to that end i will try to fuel my body as though i'm training for a race every week. which is true in many ways.
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this upcoming week i will be traveling every day except monday. i'm gonna pack the workout gear and hope they have a fitness room with very generous hours. that is all for now.
posted by brent at
10:10 PM
