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i have nothing to say but i know how you are hanging on my every word. ha. i did 30 minutes on the elliptical tonight. wussed out. i had an hour in mind but then i rationalized quitting in order to do my biceps routine. then i felt guilty about quitting so i indeed did some biceps stuff. not much though. warm-up set and then 3 sets of somewhat heavy db curls.

most of the time i freakin' hate the elliptical, its so boring. tonight all that was on tv was the local news. i'd rather watch paint dry than tune in to the local news. it is so pathetic. if its not about who was shot or who died in a car accident its something like, "we are on scene here tonight outside the gas station where an under cover 17 year old was sold cigs. we believe the brand purchased was blah blah. now back to you" blah blah blah what a waste! i don't know why everything has to be so negative on the news. who made up that rule?
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late last week someone was telling me a story about an alcoholic falling off the bandwagon. or is it on the bandwagon? whatever. anyway, i instantaneously drew the parallel to me and sugar. i'm not saying its the same thing but i do wonder if certain people are more prone to lose their mind by just eating one candy bar. by lose their mind i mean, struggle immensely with whether or not to go buy a whole bag of candy (after eating said candy bar). regardless of rational losing weight thoughts plans and goals, there is an immense internal struggle. if you can't relate to this, i dont know how to explain it. its so easy, hey don't eat a candy bar. it should be that easy anyway.