the face of a cheater?

i was so pissed off today, and disappointed. why would you do it man? i know they say everybody does it, but that doesn't mean i can't be disappointed and pissed. and how disappointed would you be if you came in second after a 90 hour race....only to find out later that you were completely robbed by a cheater. i don't know if it happened but...when the team comes out and says it was a positive, it doesn't look good...right?

i guess there is one more backup sample they are testing or something. i will hold off until then, but i can say i was disappointed that the first one came up positive.

today was really long. about 15 hours. tomorrow, early to rise again. i'm hurting. i need the weekend. its hot here. i need sleep. i realized i eat snacks when i'm sleepy, i think its some instinct in me that is hoping the snacks will wake me up. they never do.