Poignant Irrelevance

Thursday, May 11, 2006

slippery

slope!

i was telling my sister today that i have one foot in the SBD, and one foot out. technically you are probably either in or you are out. i guess i do feel like i'm on the outs, but i want both feet back in!

my aching knee just has me more depressed. i'm trying not to bring this to the blog because who likes to hear somemone mope all the time, but, it just sucks! it makes my movements feel slow and cumbersome. not springy and light. i feel like an old out of shape piece of crap just walking to and from the bathroom all day long at work. can i please just be 25 years old for an entire summer one more time? please?

springy and light are some of the best two feelings in the world yo. the feeling right after a long run that lasts a couple of hours, well that is just awesome too.

well anyway i digressed. we've also been discussing the subject of self discipline. if a person wants to stop eating candy and treats, why can't they stop? are they so weak? is it that they really don't want to stop? or is it that they have no willpower? is it physical? why can some people will themselves to change habits while others consistently struggle with dietary failures all the time?

why is losing weight so hard for humans to do? even people who have lost weight successfully will tell you that it was hard. why is it so hard? shouldn't you just be able to adjust your diet and thats it? are humans that weak?

i have kind of an interesting perspective on this in that, i once lost the weight but now i am struggling. maybe thats not so interesting, i'm just saying i've been on both sides of this. i lost the weight throught diet only, no exercise; it was back before i ever worked out. not that that fact is important but i thought i would mention it.

sometimes i say screw it, this candy bar is only 300 calories, that is not going to cause me to gain weight. of course what happens is throughout the day it becomes very difficult to stay within the calorie deficit zone when eating dense sugary crap.

i know how great the SBD is, but sometimes i'm so lazy and i give up. after a couple days. its so easy not to follow a diet period.

i guess it comes down to the point where you either determine that you will make a change in your eating habits, or you simply will not do it. or maybe not, i don't know.

to top it off, i washed 3 or 4 white t-shirts with a red sweathshirt tongiht. crap!

6 Comments:

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    By Blogger Mia Goddess, at 9:55 PM  

  • Oh! Manly! I think pink is definitely your color. :)

    As for the "diet", remember the best one is the one you'll do. Or something like that. Of course, it's me talking, so, uh, glass house anyone?

    By Blogger Mia Goddess, at 9:55 PM  

  • I say make it a "liveit"...not a "diet." Who wants an eating pattern with the word "die" in it? We want an eating pattern that we can LIVE with, that makes us feel good, that lets us enjoy life, and that allows candy bars in moderation! Life is too short not to eat candy...life is also too short to feel like crap from eating like crap.

    By Blogger lainb, at 5:39 AM  

  • thing about it from a priority perspective. what are our priorities? satisfying our immediate needs, or fulfilling our long term goals? we are adults making decisions and we chose the lifestyle we want based on our priorities.

    that's hard to swallow, in some cases, but it's real.

    to be 25 again? ugh...no way. i'm so glad my 20's are a distant memory!

    wow...this is sort of a downer comment, isn't it?

    um...you rock, brent! stick with the healthy eating! hope the knee cooperates! buck up, little camper, you'll be springy and light again soon!

    whew. much better.

    By Blogger Unknown, at 9:59 AM  

  • I don't think people are weak - I don't know if you're talking about yourself or other people (like me!) but neither one of us is weak or undisciplined. It's very very hard to lose weight - the human body doesn't seem to want to do it. I think it's even harder in our modern, affluent world, because with readily-available food and processed food, you can go way over your caloric range with ONE SNACK. How many other things do we attempt, where we can't mess up ever, at all? Not many! Don't beat yourself up, just keep trying...

    By Blogger M@rla, at 7:40 AM  

  • Sorry bout the knee. Hope it isn't a problem for too long. As for the pink laundry...that's the reason hubby no longer does laundry in our house. Thankfully the last of his "pink socks" are worn out and have finally been tossed out.

    As for the diet...man I can so relate. Neither my training or weight loss is going as planned this year. Such is life sometimes. *sigh*

    By Blogger Dawn - Pink Chick Tris, at 10:13 PM  

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