Poignant Irrelevance

Sunday, November 27, 2005

the 4th decade

still having a hard time dealing with the idea of being 30. i never thought i would be one of these people. typically stuff like this doesn't bother me. the day is drawing near. very near.

i think it is less about the number, more about me feeling like i'm not where i thought i would be at 30. i have lived for 30 years, and that does not seem possible at all.

i don't exactly know where i thought i would be, but it seems like i should have accomplished more by now; had more fun in life, visited more destinations, me+soul mate, and so on. i just feel like some sort of growth that was supposed to happen, did not happen and i can only blame myself. now there is nothing i can do about it. good bye 20's. good bye. i did not serve you very well, i did not utilize the full potential available to me, i didn't take enough risks. but i guess i will try anew as i enter the 4th decade of my life.

13 Comments:

  • in your 30's you can only date one woman at a time...

    ;-)

    By Blogger Danny, at 11:23 PM  

  • Danny's comment is so funny.

    Happy b-day brent :) Let me know how 30 goes. Please let it still be fun!!!

    (and don't be so hard on yourself!)

    By Anonymous Audrey, at 11:28 PM  

  • I'll be 30 in January, so I feel your pain. I remember when 30 seemed a ripe old age, and I'm pretty sure I thought I'd have won a pulitzer prize by now, or at least have married rich. Hang in there!

    By Blogger Portuguese Washwoman, at 8:03 AM  

  • Happy Birthday Brent. BTW, I'm 34 and STILL trying to figure out where I am suppose to be. I had a plan when I was younger, I was going to be married at 25! Still single almost 10 years later.

    I heard the 30s and 40s are suppose to be our best years yet...still waiting!

    P.S. Don't lament on yesterday, work on your today.

    By Anonymous Trish, at 9:13 AM  

  • Brent,
    I understand how you feel. You can likely take solace in the fact that as you look around you and see the other 30 year-olds, you see a lot of fat people who haven't taken care of themselves. You aren't a member of that club and you're still striving to better yourself. I'd say that makes the last 30 years reasonably successful.

    By Blogger Scooter, at 10:22 AM  

  • As I approach my 30th I keep repeating the phrase, it's the journey not the destination. Have fun--enjoy yourself--and don't worry about false accomplishments. The only true testament to success is living fully each day.

    By Blogger Syd, at 11:07 AM  

  • Happy Birthday B! Live long, laugh often! Here's to 30! Make it great!

    By Blogger Cassie (TIGGS), at 1:37 PM  

  • Surround yourself with others going through the same phase of life, and I bet you will find that we are all pretty much feeling the same thing. And you know what’s funny? We'll all be 50 one day and probably still be wondering the same things! We are all in the same boat, floating through this crazy life, so might as well relax and enjoy it. Tomorrow is a new day with unlimited possibilities.

    This is a not-so-subtle hint that you should come to you know where, you know when! I bet it would lift your mood a little. :-)

    By Blogger Shawn, at 2:54 PM  

  • Omigosh, enough with the turmoil about turning 30, people (LOL)...you're in totally amazing shape, you've got girls falling all over you, a good job, nice place to live, lots of friends...you're totally THERE, dude! This is what people dream about and you're living it. Thirty, twenty-nine, forty, whatever, it's all about how you use what you've got and you're definitely shaking Life by the tail. :-)

    By Blogger Denise, at 3:52 PM  

  • I didn't grow up until I turned 50. Now I do whatever I want:) Really, your best years are still coming. Enjoy every day.

    By Blogger susie, at 4:41 PM  

  • Make your 30s the years when you had NO REGRETS!!!

    By Blogger lainb, at 7:05 PM  

  • I'm in my mid to late 20s and earnestly said the phrase, "When we grow up, we'll..." to a childhood friend on Thanksgiving eve. A few minutes after the exchange, we both started to laugh and wondered when we'll realize that we are, ahem, adults.

    By Blogger boiledpnut, at 5:28 PM  

  • I'm still saying "When I grow up..." and i'm 48!!!

    Anyway, if 50 is the new 40, then 30 is the new 20!
    It's more fun to think of it that way. You will ROCK your 30s. Just wait.

    By Blogger jeanne, at 3:18 PM  

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