Reflection
i haven't figured out how to constructively reflect on the past. i used to be lighter and now i'm not. i see this as a glaring failure; it is blinding, i cannot see anything else. it took years of work to be a lighter me. years i tell you. why don't you use the things you learned back then right now? yada yada yada blah blah blah.
one of my biggest fears is setting goals that i struggle my whole life trying to achieve but never achieving. living too much in the past and the future but not in the present. this is something i'm working on. its kind of hard though. i am reading a book that focuses on postive thinking. its not working yet, hehe.
but anyways...
the first time i flew in an airplane was in 2000 (flying as a baby doesn't count). while i grumble about my profession at times, i have no doubt been able to do things i only dreamed about as a young lad. tonight i choose to reflect on that postive little morsel...
places flown to in 2004, in no particular order:
santiago chile (1st time)
boston
new york
san francicso
washtington DC (1st time)
orlando
phoenix
colorado
michigan
chicago
atlanta
baltimore
thats all i can remember right now.
i haven't figured out how to constructively reflect on the past. i used to be lighter and now i'm not. i see this as a glaring failure; it is blinding, i cannot see anything else. it took years of work to be a lighter me. years i tell you. why don't you use the things you learned back then right now? yada yada yada blah blah blah.
one of my biggest fears is setting goals that i struggle my whole life trying to achieve but never achieving. living too much in the past and the future but not in the present. this is something i'm working on. its kind of hard though. i am reading a book that focuses on postive thinking. its not working yet, hehe.
but anyways...
the first time i flew in an airplane was in 2000 (flying as a baby doesn't count). while i grumble about my profession at times, i have no doubt been able to do things i only dreamed about as a young lad. tonight i choose to reflect on that postive little morsel...
places flown to in 2004, in no particular order:
santiago chile (1st time)
boston
new york
san francicso
washtington DC (1st time)
orlando
phoenix
colorado
michigan
chicago
atlanta
baltimore
thats all i can remember right now.
posted by brent at
8:37 PM
2 Comments:
i've been there brent. it really IS a lot of work to NOT dwell on the past, to NOT wonder 'what if' and 'why' and to stay positive.
but just keep at it. look around at all the things you do HAVE and have accomplished and realize that you are lucky to have them. watch the news, read the papers, and recognize that there are so many people who can only dream of the things you have - job, housing, food, clothing, health, family, friends.
forgive yourself for what you did in the past and promise yourself that you will learn from it. let go and move on!
and know that you will need to work at this constantly. over time, it will get easier but it will always be there. it will make you stronger!
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Running Chick, at 12:37 PM
yes very true. thanks for the kick in the butt! i needed it.
By
brent, at 7:35 PM
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